RoB- Jillian's conundrum (34th entry)

Jillian just couldn't shake off Alina's untimely death.There were two categories of deaths for her: people Jill loved and people she hated. She didn't love Alina - especially the way she had loved her darling daughter Lily -but she didn't hate her either.So a third category.... It was more of a business relationship; and of course since she and Alina had been complicit in a few men 's deaths,they were forever tied through their murderous actions.Jill considered filling Alina's spot in the quartet, but dismissed it, since the other "lethal"women had already bonded.Besides, she thought, the trio would be fine, even though Alina's youth and energy were advantages for the misfit group of misandrists, because the others were all approaching middle age. Jillian gave the man killers a month off to grieve, but part of the leave of absence was for herself as well. She knew what malevolent projects she wanted "executed", but she was preoccupied with the hanging. Had she so misread Alina to miss her suicidal thoughts? Jill thought Alina's anger,misandry and need for revenge would drive her forward, not be halted by despair.She couldn't talk to anyone except Evelynn about the Alina " problem ", because no one else knew of the quartet- now trio. She loved the ABC crew,Yung and Ruby, and Jill would be devastated by any one of their deaths.This somehow made her think that she should feel more disconsolate about Alina than she did. Jill recognized that Evelynn was her anchor, her dearest friend of all, so she would just wait until Evelynn returned from her brief sabbatical to New York City. She knew Evelynn was a voice of reason and the perfect- albeit only- sounding board for Jillian's nagging feeling that the young murderer was herself murdered .Jill knew in her gut that Alina's death was a homicide not suicide.